Rachel: April 27, 2014

I asked mom what love felt like, and she talked about a fluttering in your tummy, warmth, sweaty palms, gross stuff like that (sounds a whole lot like the flu to me!). What she described, though, I don't feel for Jacob. Not even a little. But I do for Brandon.

I'm not gross. I don't think Brandon and I have a future or anything. He's old. But I think I might break up with Jacob. It doesn't feel right to go out with someone I don't love.

I guess I'll have to ask mom about that one too. She doesn't look like she has the flu when dad's around. Maybe it's OK to marry someone you don't love.