So, I'm starting a journal today. Pretty funny that I'm starting on April Fools Day, but seemed like as good a day as any. Things are getting weird for me, so I figured I could use this to kind of document that, and see if maybe I can work through some of the shit.
So the biggest thing that happened in my life up until now is definitely that my girlfriend of 15 months got killed in a car accident. This happened like 4 months ago, so I'm still dealing with that. In working through that, I did some things I wouldn't have if she were still around. Like drugs.
I had some friends in middle school that knew Julie and helped me through some of that, but part of helping me through it was getting me high for the first time. And the second...and the third. I'm not going to lie, it helped. But those friends...well, let's just say that they aren't a very good influence. They don't only do drugs, but they deal them too. I've been helping them sell drugs in my school. I'm starting to get my life back together, but I'm not going to lie, the money is nice. Not sure what I should do.